London, July 20 (ANI): Abi Titmuss has given juicy insight about her drug and sex fuelled life.

Talking candidly about how she became hooked on sex, drugs, and her wild five years with daytime TV presenter John Leslie, the controversial glamour girl revealed some intimate details of her relationship with Leslie, the man she stood by after several women accused him of rape in 2002.

“John was dominantthere was a massive 11-year age gapand I was young and naive. Life with him got wilder and wilder. Things got too out of handand that was difficult for me,” News of the World quoted her, as saying.

During one of Leslie’’s wild nights, Titmuss was even infamously taped having sex with him and another girl.

It was a mistake that she does not regret, but now wants to put it in context.

“Girls threw themselves at him. If that meant going with me, even kissing or having sex with me so they could sleep with him then they would do that, she said.

“Although I didn”t do it just for John. Since then I have been with another woman. There was an element of me that wanted to. Before I met him I was always curious about girls. But when we made that sex tape of us with another girl we never dreamt it would get out.

“The sex wasn”t degrading though. I don”t feel any shame about it at all. I was never forced into anything. And I don”t blame John,” she added.

However, Titmuss blames Leslie for introducing her to her cocaine habit.

“It was his social circles that got me into drugs in the first place. I”ve tried cocaine many times, she said.

“It was everywhere, as it is at most showbiz parties. I had said no to it a thousand times but one night I thought, ”Oh f*** it, I wonder what it’’s like?” And I snorted a line. And that was the start of it.”

Her turbulent relationship with Leslie plunged her into depression so deep that she even contemplated suicide.

“After five years with John Leslie I think anyone would need therapy to be honest with you. Everything had built up and I”d got lower and lower. Some pretty dark thoughts went through my mind. It was only my parents that stopped me from doing something really stupid, she said. (ANI)