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Melbourne, Nov 06 (ANI): Australian actress Portia de Rossi has revealed how she is haunted by her weight problems in her memoir, ‘Unbearable Lightness, A Story of Loss and Gain’.

The 37-year-old actress reveals that her conscience would wake her up at 4am every morning, push her to get up and run on the treadmill or do hundreds of crunches and lunges.

She followed a very strict diet too, using the same kitchen scale, same small plastic containers, blue mixing bowl, measuring spoon and fork, and weighing the 57g portions painstakingly.

The ‘Ally McBeal’ actress felt it must be performed just right if she was to restrict herself to her rigid, 300 calorie a-day regimen and not gain weight.

Once she had 170g of yoghurt and the next morning she was totally distraught, and vowed to eat only half her usual calories, 150 for the day, and take 20 laxatives, a strategy she has used since she was 15.

“I start sobbing now as I lunge my way across the floor and I wonder how many calories I’m burning by sobbing,” News.com.au quoted her as writing.

“It crosses my mind to vocalise my thoughts of self-loathing, because speaking the thoughts that fuel the sobs would have to burn more calories.

“You’re nothing. You’re average. You’re an ordinary, average, fat piece of shit. You ugly, stupid bitch,” she stated.

De Rossi, wife of chat show host and megastar comedian Ellen Generes, writes in her diary about an eating disorder that crept up on her and nearly saw her starve herself to death. (ANI)