Goody lost her hair before when she tried drugs to get close to mumFebruary 24th, 2009 - 5:20 pm ICT by ANI
London, February 24 (ANI): Cancer-stricken Jade Goody has experienced hair loss before, when as a teenager she had smoked crack to get close to her drug-addict mum Jackiey.
The 27-year-old, who lost all her hair after undergoing chemotherapy in her battle with cervical cancer, revealed she had turned to drugs when she was 18 in a desperate plight to get noticed.
I cant believe Im admitting this but a voice in my head said to me, I might as well do a bit of crack myself. I might as well go the same way as Mum. At least then wed be together, the Sun quoted her as saying in her autobiography, Jade Catch A Falling Star.
I walked into the lounge, where she was smoking crack. I took some of it, put it in a Rizla paper to make a joint and I smoked it.
All the time I had tears streaming down my face. I was willing her to stop me and to promise me shed never do it again. But she didnt.
Id foolishly thought that if she could see what it looked like and if she thought that her own daughter was about to go to the same dark place she was in shed put a stop to it.
I couldnt even smoke it all, it made me feel too ill. I ran to the toilet, stuck my fingers down my throat and made myself sick. I was shaking and crying. Then I ran to my room and shut the door.
I felt like utter s**t. I bashed my head repeatedly against the wall as hard as I could, I pulled my hair out of my head until my scalp was red raw and I pinched my skin until it went purple, she added. (ANI)
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